Any way, here are some things I'm thinking about:
On Thanksgiving we alway go to Texarkana to be with Richard's family. Some years I look forward to it and other years not so much. This year was a not so much year, mostly due to being sick for so long and fatigued. So we went and it rained harder than I have ever seen it rain. It was while we were driving between Alexander and Malvern. I was so afraid. You literally couldn't see 1/8 of a mile in front of you, it was worse if the person in front of you didn't have their lights on. In my mind I was complaining to God and wanting to tell Richard to take me home. We went to Texarkana and had a nice day and came home a little early, for which I was thankful :) The next night I was on the computer but listening to the news. They had a report about a house fire in Pulaski County, for some reason I looked at the TV and realized they were talking about another homeschool family. I couldn't believe it. As I thought about it later, it made me grateful that the rain had come and had come in buckets...the family lost everything but they all survived, with no injuries, but I wondered if it hadn't rained so much or so hard, would the house have burned faster? I won't know and don't need to, but it sure changed my perspective about the rain.
Another subject: As of today I have been coughing for 59 days. I have been to the doctor several times, had blood drawn, x-rays, chest CT, on multiple meds.... not getting any better. Next Wednesday I'm having a bronchoscopy done so the doctor can look in my airways and take some samples to see if they can figure out what is wrong. I'm hoping they do figure out what is wrong and that it is treatable. This cough is very taxing and causes fatigue and shortness of breath. Being worn out is sort of putting a cramp in my life.... I'm usually finished shopping for Christmas by now and have everything wrapped. I'm not done shopping and have only wrapped 2 presents. Part of me doesn't care, because I'm so tired but another part of me wants to quickly get it done so I can rest. I've also discovered that physical fatigue can cause mental fatigue too, sort of weird. I know that it is possible that what ever this is might be something I have to live with. I've been praying that if that is the case that the Lord will show me how I'm supposed to live my "new normal" for His glory. It will be hard... at least this side of the grace I will need it seems hard. Just making my bed makes me cough. I don't get a lot done each day, but I am trying to do a few things each day, with rests in between. I want Him to get glory, no matter what happens.
3 comments:
I've wrestled with the blogging question off and on, too. For me, it's a memory device. It helps me to synthesize what I'm reading and learning to put it down "on paper." If it helps someone else in the blogosphere, that's an added bonus! :)
I also know that I've gotten lots of crafty, party, and other ideas from blogs, so I'm happy to share my projects and parties, too, in the hopes that it will help someone else.
As you can probably tell from my sporadic posts, I also don't feel a need to post something every day or on a set schedule. I just post whenever I feel like I have something to say. That keeps it from being another "chore" to add to my list, if that makes sense.
And sometimes reading others blogs encourage my walk with the Lord. I wish I had more time to read blogs, but I don't. It is a pleasure that I am able to do sometimes.
I am praying for you, friend, as they try to see what is going on with you. I pray that you can trust in the waiting and that God will continue to strengthen you with His mighty power.
It's been fun getting back into blogging. I think talking to you about it encouraged me to press onward with it regardless of readership (or lack there of). I truly is therapeutic, and as Jennifer said -- if it helps someone else, that's a bonus!
Hoping for treatable results tomorrow!
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